Sunday, August 20, 2006
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Day3:
haha. CX!!. woke up early in the morning to prepare. but as usual, no matter how long we wake up, we will always be late. haha. and our tent is super difficult to stuff in. don't know fold and roll and stuff how many times then can. can die man. is like everything is late. everything so rushing. the packing of tent already took such a long time already. then we still have to fill our water bottles. lost some. backpack also like extra 1. have to move here move there. to the storeroom, then to the meeting point near the jetty. then i went to move the kayak to the waterline. walao. those other watches ppl slacking down there see us so helpless also never help. haha. tiring loh. so yeah. what we learnt. SENSE OF URGENCY + TEAMWORK. really man. i lack sense of urgency. early in the morning i wake up, i still think there's lot of time. can relax. everything is done slowly. walk slow slow. pack slowslow. everything slow. sense of urgency really impt. because lacking of that, everything is late. never meet time. is like we know that the current will change against us at a certain time, if we too late, we will have to kayak against the current at a longer distance. which is.. disaster. but knowing this won't help yeah, everything is still slow. luan qi ba zhao. but nvm. in the end we still manage to have our cx. haha. yeah. rashid is our watch de cx leader. haha. nice guy leh him. really nice. helpful guy. haha. kayak with xiuming. at first, the kayaking process was quite smooth. current is like okok. but we kept banging onto ppl kayak. pathetic. so cramp. then i kept ster to the left inorder to move away from the kayak crowd. haha. then we saw dolly and xiao qi kayak lah. haha. decided to paddle together. meaning holding each other deck line, then one person from each kayak paddle one side. haha. so funny. but that don't work of course. cannot keep on playing. and since we really lack of time, we have to rush. got scolded from the instructor a lot of time for not having sense of urgency man. they say what we should be moving at a speed of 4km per hr, but now we are moving at a speed of 2km per hr. a big difference. actually time really flies when kayaking, is like after a while, from 9pm, it's already 12 plus already. sia si ren. they say what every 45min can rest for 5 min. shit. where got. but seriously, we stop for quite a no. of times. but is STOP, not REST. is different. haha. then when we had our first serious rest, ppl was like coming out of kayak and shh shh. so cute. quite nice lah actually the scene. everybody help each other just for 1 person to shh shh. so cute. haha. then when each person shh shh, is like such a big deal. haha. then pedal for quite long. think is around the east of pulau ubin already, and by that time, we are against the current. so everybody gt quite fed up. really put in a lot of strength loh. but is like we kept lagging behind. keep cannot catch up with the kayaks infront. so fed up. then i kept scolding bad word. scold the current. scold the wave. scold the water. haha. i prayed also of course. and ya, the worse is when wave comes, the water will splash into my kayak seat. each time it did, i wanna kill ppl man. it's like cos i paddle real hard, then lots of water already splashed in. with more water coming in, we are risked of capsizing. and if we capsize at that point, it only meant: wan le wan le. later on, we heard from instructor saying that we pedal alone at the east side of pulau ubin takes up a few hours. it's terrible man. inside so hungry. muscle no strength anymore. then less and less kayaks in sight. on the verge of giving up man. really wanna drop the pedal and forget it. so obviously, learn sth also: PERSEVERANCE. seriously, if we nv try, we nv know whether we can suceed. so why give up??. like what samuel had said later on, "a ship have to leave the shore in order to explore more sea." or sth like that. cool yeah. PERSERVERANCE + DETERMINATION. cool cool. really works. and there's this quote the next day during our land ex: little by little, man walks far. yeah. true yeah. never give up. keep on trying and trying. cos one day, one time, we will reach the ending point. yeahyeah. thinking back, if i give up then, i think i'll regret. haha. anyway, half way through kayaking, saw a guy pedal towards the instructor speed boat with a girl like sicksick de sitting infront. haiz. sad leh. pedal half way sick. cannot finish kayak. haiz. but anyway, still against the current, was like going to turn towards the south of pulau ubin, then we cannot have a direct turn, must go one big round because what marine thing under water. think is what plant or sth. dangerous yeah. but at that time, who cares about whether is dangerous anot. just want to pedal a shorter distance, quickly reach the other side. haha. so of course man, kept cursing about the marine thingy, why got plant. curse curse curse. ohya, then there is this gal, who partner afiq. damn nice. is like at that time, most ppl is fed up already. once we bang into each other, we will scold or give a irritated face. but that girl hor, make me felt so guilty about my temper. she kept saying sorry. even though it's like it's ok even if she don't say sorry. she felt apologetic about her banging, even though it's like not her fault. make me felt so small and little man. yeah. learn from her. must be benevolent. or is that the word?? haha. nice girl. even though don't know her name. i mean, being irritated and all won't help yeah. must calm down. infact, we should enjoy kayaking. why feel tortured and suffered there. it's like we should have a bit of everything: SENSE OF URGENCY, TEAMWORK, PERSERVERANCE, DETERMINATION, and ENJOYMENT. if u don't enjoy, it's all wasted. haha. so stay happy yeah. then around 3 plus. we finally had our lunch. haha. grabbing to a rope, then won't drift away. lots of ppl use this chance to shh shh. when xiuming wanted to shh shh, she almost capsized us man. haha. heard infront really gt ppl who capsize because of shh shh. lucky we nv. or esle very troublesome. ok. lunch. ate quite alot. eat here eat there. can't blame yeah. use so much energy. first time felt so hungry in obs. ate bread, lots of biscuit. and oranges!!. fed some to xiaoqi cos her kayak boat beside ours. haha. then ya. then quite relax lah. finally can take out my knee, damn pain. it's like straighten for so long, then there's this very obvious line on my big leg. haha. my elbow there de skin turned purple. which is.. wow. cool. then when we were ready to go to finish our cx, afiq's kayak capsize think is because shh shh then when getting back to the kayak, the kayak capsize. then i was like quite high and happy then, all relax, so i went laughing at him. seriously, don't mean any offence. just find it cute and all. haha. no offence no offence. even though i was quite bad to laugh lah. haha. then we continue kayaking to our campsite. which is a public one. named HMC (ho mun chu campsite, or sth like that). is like everything we do have sth to do with "ho". haha. CHENG HO. yeah. quite smooth. the kayak. then when we are going to reach. one instructor kept telling zhili to sing jay chou song. heard that is because when the instructor sing, zhili go insult his singing. haha. so stupid lah me. over enthu. go sing fa ru xue. haha. then zhao xia. lucky little ppl heard me singing. but of course, xiuming heard. haha. ahh. so malu. then finally reach our campsite. back pedal to the shore. then have to help kayak drain water by doing see saw. really hate it. i mean hating me not being able to help much. finding me quit useless. it's like why i so no strength. carry kayak still need ppl to help. other ppl can solo carry one side. i still need ppl to help. so was like.. "wei shen me i so weak" mood. yeahyeah. so must train up man. so have better strength in my legs and arms. cannot be a weakling. that's my aim. i don't want to be a weakling. just carry a to-other-ppl-light-light bag, but to me, it's heavy. felt so useless always. can't stand myself. I DONT WANT TO BE A WEAKLING. anyway, went to help arrange the pedal and all. then after arranging, because i was wearing a hat, can't see anything upwards of me, i bang in to a tree. shit. tree man. lucky now nt pain anymore. don't think anybody see it. it was like.. my brain shock dao. can feel my teeth also shock dao. haha. terrible lah. just so unlucky. haha.
after that, had to pitch tent. again. at first we chose our door to be facing the sea. then there is too much wind blowing. making our flier sheet can't stand the wind also blowing. so decide to move further back. but further back, the ground could not be peg-ged. so have to move back again. then we face another direction this time. didn't work. making the tent wanna collaspe cos the wind kept blowing with one side collasping down. so have to change the position at first. it's like if we don't change at first. we will save quite a long time pitching tent, and could help other ppl pitch. waste so much time for nth. so learn what yeah. THINK BEFORE U ACT. pathetic. really waste of time moving here and there. oh ya, and the ground is really difficult to pitch. have to use stone and stuff. lose 2 pegs there. pathetic. haha. then ate our dinner. maggie mee plus sardine. wasn't really hungry. too tired to be hungry. just wanna quickly change and sleep. so after eating, went to toilet with girls to change. seriously, i take really a long time. cos.. yeah. woman woman. i felt really dirty. of course lah, taking such a long time, making me feel so guilty and all. because it's like the whole watch is waiting for me outside. sry yeah. felt really guilty. lucky that's baina. nice girl also. nicenice. encourage me. tell me it's ok and all. nice yeah. pat on my shoulder. felt really depressed then. cos waste so many ppl's time. and we are already late on timing again. so on the way back to the tent from the toilet, which is a super long walk, felt really sad.
then had our circle talk again. so tired. lucky it's dark. everything is dark. close my eyes while samuel talk. didn't really listen. just wanna quickly go back and sleep. so yeah. sleep. everybody so tired. mentally and physically. and ya. there's no breeze. even though u can see the tent was all blown up because of the wind, there's is no wind at the bottom of the tent. the air move in at the top. hello, we are sleeping down there. not up. haha. so yeah. was like hot. but in the morning, feet was freezing. think it rained a bit, lucky the tent never collaspe, cos our flier sheet was like flying and not stable at all. so yeah. the 3rd day over.
ohya, my hair was super smelly. tied up the whole day with sea water inside it. haha. no choice. and one thing, cos on 2nd night, i take my skirt to use as a pillow, then the next morning, which is the 3rd day morning, i forgot to take my skirt out, so when we folded the tent, swusan and i was like wondering why there's sth hard hard de. haha. then in the end, finally know is my skirt. haha. stupid.
go to bath first. type so long only 1 day. 2 more days to go. yeahyeah. haha =).
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